|I'm expecting a baby in a few months, and it's an odd sensation. I know it will completely and permanently alter my life in countless ways, but I'm just not sure of the details. I mean I know I'll never sleep again, and I'll never have free time or energy again. But how will I feel about that?
Having a due date is sort of like planning for a major event like a wedding, where you're saving up money, buying various necessities, and generally counting down the days. Except it's less like a wedding and more like a natural disaster. You know something big is gonna happen, and it'll affect every aspect of your entire life, and so all you can do is sit there and wait for it to happen. Also it won't happen gradually like a slow-moving volcano in Hawaii; it'll be all at once like a fucking meteorite. In short, I'm panicking, but only a little bit at a time.
I haven't spent much mental energy worrying about things -- will the child be a human, will it have a sufficient number of limbs, will it inherit my baldness? And the simple reason is that it's too late now. You can back out of a wedding; you can cancel travel plans; you can get a tattoo removed. You can't undo a pregnancy (I mean obviously you can, but we're past that point). It's happening, and as much as we can paint and prep and read books, we're still just sitting around waiting for that meteorite to land on our heads. #lifestyle