I heard a phrase recently, and I can apply it to a few situations in my life.  The phrase is "Want to want".  Used in context:  "I want to want to go to the gym, but I just don't."  Another way of saying it is "I wish I had the desire to go to the gym."  It's different from "I want to go to the gym."  It implies a lack of desire, and a desire to change that lack of desire. 

I went to a financial advisor recently.  This guy explained the inner workings of money to such detail that my brain actually shut down.  I died for a few minutes and was only awoken when he said something about chocolate-covered dollar bills.  The thing about money is that as long as I have some, I really don't care about it.  It doesn't interest me in the least.  I find it very boring to hear about finances and stock options.  I don't understand annuities and life insurance, and I don't have the desire to.  I wish I had the desire to learn about money.  I'd love to have the desire to study economics and learn about the federal reserve.  I want to want to learn about the value of the dollar and how compound interest is calculated.  But when it comes down to it, I just don't.  I wish I wanted to, but I don't. #money